deep dive into the shadowy abyss
A perspective I’m working with is acknowledging the fact that these aspects of my self I do not desire to embody, ARE NOT ME. They are not my truest, highest self. They’re illusory manifestations I have given power to over time, through continuous blind surrender. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ As I traveled deep within myself in meditation, I was shown a visual of the totality of myself as a multidimensional being. Truly. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Our shadows, our demons, exist in the lower realms of our being. Our highest self exists within the higher realms. And by accepting all aspects from the highest to the lowest, we find peace in the center. The center being our heart. Our place of unity, unconditional love, divinity. The seat of our Soul. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ As I center in my free will choice, I get to choose which aspects I allow to manifest in this moment. I can cut ties to the lower aspects. With the awareness that this takes dedication and commitment to remain conscious in every moment. To not slip into the unconscious where you are susceptible to manipulation and control by these lower demons. They are not you. Nor do they have power over you unless you give them power. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I am not addicted to food. I am not a procrastinator. I am not afraid of being seen. I am not afraid of failure. I am not afraid of my success. A demon within me who knows those are my biggest distractions from anchoring in my highest light, is. And the more I believe in its existence, the more real he becomes. But I can starve this demon to death, transmute his power completely, by consciously making him known, by shining my light into the darkest corners of this illusory manifestation, and by remaining in my power that transcends any and all ‘addictions’ or self limitations. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I can choose right here, in this and every moment, to choose which aspects I give power to. To no longer unconsciously feed the victim archetype that believes she is powerless over these demons that hide in the shadows of my being and step fully into my light. One step at a time.